Of course, when bad things do happen, and happen thick and fast as they did to me a few years ago, it is easy to explain the feeling of dread and anxiety. But I experienced this for a long time before. For years I went about my business (to the extent that I went, or had business) with the expectation that I was shortly to receive a tap on the shoulder in the form of some calamity or other. I was rigid with fear. Continue reading The True Cause of Dread and Anxiety
Awake, awake, awake all night. Continue reading Mindfulness. Wakefulness.
I remember laughing like a drain the first time it happened. Continue reading Knowing Which Way Is Up
That nothing good ever happens to me is a habit of mine. Continue reading Nothing Good Ever Happens To Me
I jumped at an opportunity. Not something I do often. I tend to be a thinker, a muller, a procrastinator, a finder of excuses. My default is ‘yes, but’. Continue reading A Lesson
Last session in Germany. It’s been a wonderful few days of imagining, exchanging and warmth. We sit in a circle and the teacher talks about trappings. How he used to enjoy the comfort and status conferred by living in a big house. (Hello? Is it me you’re talking to?) And how his dog, who has no worries about his appearance, is his role model. People spend time and money on clothes, makeup, jewellery etc, but these are not their body. Continue reading Letter To My Body